Today I met my first goal! Today I am 29 weeks pregnant, going into my 30th week! I am officially more pregnant than I was nearly 3 years ago with sweet little Izzie! I woke up today and was so thankful!
28 weeks with Izzie, I was in the hospital on STRICT bedrest, I couldn't even get up to pee, had to pee in a weird kidney shaped pee pan!
29 weeks with Izzie, I was waking up delirious and confused from an emergency c-section. It happened so fast and my only memories are ones told to me through Craig :(
29 weeks with Izzie, I was no longer 29 weeks pregnant, but a mommy to a 2 pound 10 ounce miracle that was alive and fighting to live. I couldn't hold her, or touch her, but she was still perfect to me.
The next 8 weeks were spent living at the hospital and being a part time mom at home. I would never ever take back those precious bonding times that I got with Izzie as I watched her learn to breathe on her own; suck, swallow, & breathe at the same time; hold her body temperature; outgrow apnea, all the things she was supposed to do in my tummy over the next 12 weeks, I got to watch from her bed side. It was tough, but I cannot replace what I learned those 8 weeks and the dependency on the Lord that can only be learned through tough times.
Oh memories, they make me cry, they make me smile, they make me so grateful! My tears now are tears of gratitude for the protection the Lord had over my life and the life of our delicate little girl. Both of our lives were at risk that day but God had a plan and still does. I will rejoice and be glad with each new day. He is really showing off this pregnancy and constantly reminding me not to doubt, or worry or be anxious.
So TODAY I am still pregnant! I feel good, and I have reached my very first goal! I am going into my 30th week of pregnancy and it is so great! I had an ultrasound on Thursday that looked great! Little man looks amazing, no need for any concerns!
It's hard not to compare with my past, especially my most recent past pregnancy. That has been the battle in my mind this entire pregnancy, to focus on now and what God can and WILL do, not to dwell on the past experiences.
My Aunt Dorcas sent me an encouraging text this week. She was checking in on me and something so simple that she said really allowed me to see bedrest a little differently and to see prayer and obedience a little differently also... She said "stay in bed so our prayers are answered. If you don't its kind of like asking God to help you on an exam you didn't study for." I am sooo incredibly thankful for my family and friends that are constantly praying for me and this precious baby! My obedience is a big part in this pregnancy, and I am working really hard at staying put!
In 3 more weeks from today, I will be 32 weeks pregnant. Pray for me to reach my 2nd goal, 32 weeks! I am the little big engine that could, and WILL!
First goal: COMPLETE!! Now, let's work on Goal two! Sounds like your Aunt Dorcas had some wise words for you: Stay put and do your part;do what you can physically to be consistent with what we are praying for you and Sully!!
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to see your 32 week PREGNANT belly!